I wish I had a good Pema quote to write here, or something really profound to say. I'm very much in the "one day at a time" mode right now and grateful for all the friends who are seeing me through. I have a few friends coming over in the next couple of days to help me pack. I took a long walk in Central Park today because it helps me to stay calm.
I just went through the NY Times' website and got agitated again. The banking industry is still a mess, the health care debate seems to have gone into total insanity (thank you Glen Beck.) I started reading Matt Taibbi's blog and I want to continue reading more of his work. He's an investigative reporter for Rolling Stone. A friend introduced me to his work, so I've started reading his blog.
Mary Travers and Patrick Swayze died in the past few days. I remember the first time I saw "Dirty Dancing" - I was pregnant, I think. It was one of those movies I went to alone in the afternoon. I forget which theater it was at, maybe the Paris? Anyway, I remember getting so excited and when the movie was over, it felt like every woman in the theater was totally turned on. I don't even remember if any men were there. I've probably seen "Dirty Dancing" at least a dozen and I could watch it a dozen more. There's no plot really, just really great dancing. He was a wonderful dancer.
And who didn't love Peter, Paul and Mary?
Several friends have told me recently that they are thinking about separating or have already separated from their partners. I feel for them. The emotions are all over the place - fear, anger, relief, excitement, loneliness, sadness, grief, loss, happiness. Dear friends I haven't heard from in a long time are showing up for me and I'm trying to show up for my friends who are taking this difficult step. I guess that's the sweetest part of life - the love and support we give each other in troubled times.
I am filled with gratitude for all of my friends. I don't know what we can do about Glenn Beck or Rush Limbaugh, except hope that enough people in this country are too smart to fall for their manipulations and lies.