Yesterday, after I left my lawyer's office and said goodbye, I was feeling shaky and sad. I went to Central Park and sat on a bench and my friend Karen called and suggested that we meet.
We went for a walk in the park. She and her husband divorced a little over ten years ago, after a 25+ year marriage. She said her divorce made her feel empowered and that the years since have been some of the best of her life. We walked through the park for a long time and then sat on another bench. Eventually, we ended up near Lincoln Center, having a light dinner and then walked over to Lincoln Center to listen to a band that was performing outdoors.
It was an excellent night and I thought about these last two years and how challenging they've been. I still care about my ex-husband, I'm not the kind of person who can flip a switch on and off. I wish him well. And I do feel empowered and different than the person I was a few years ago.
I've learned so much about walking through fear, change and grief -- they weren't lessons I really wanted to learn, they were painful.
But mostly I'm just grateful for a perfect summer night, in Central Park and Lincoln Center, with a really dear friend.