Showing posts with label Central Park. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Central Park. Show all posts
Friday, January 24, 2014
Friday, August 5, 2011
Empowerment
Yesterday, after I left my lawyer's office and said goodbye, I was feeling shaky and sad. I went to Central Park and sat on a bench and my friend Karen called and suggested that we meet.
We went for a walk in the park. She and her husband divorced a little over ten years ago, after a 25+ year marriage. She said her divorce made her feel empowered and that the years since have been some of the best of her life. We walked through the park for a long time and then sat on another bench. Eventually, we ended up near Lincoln Center, having a light dinner and then walked over to Lincoln Center to listen to a band that was performing outdoors.
It was an excellent night and I thought about these last two years and how challenging they've been. I still care about my ex-husband, I'm not the kind of person who can flip a switch on and off. I wish him well. And I do feel empowered and different than the person I was a few years ago.
I've learned so much about walking through fear, change and grief -- they weren't lessons I really wanted to learn, they were painful.
But mostly I'm just grateful for a perfect summer night, in Central Park and Lincoln Center, with a really dear friend.
We went for a walk in the park. She and her husband divorced a little over ten years ago, after a 25+ year marriage. She said her divorce made her feel empowered and that the years since have been some of the best of her life. We walked through the park for a long time and then sat on another bench. Eventually, we ended up near Lincoln Center, having a light dinner and then walked over to Lincoln Center to listen to a band that was performing outdoors.
It was an excellent night and I thought about these last two years and how challenging they've been. I still care about my ex-husband, I'm not the kind of person who can flip a switch on and off. I wish him well. And I do feel empowered and different than the person I was a few years ago.
I've learned so much about walking through fear, change and grief -- they weren't lessons I really wanted to learn, they were painful.
But mostly I'm just grateful for a perfect summer night, in Central Park and Lincoln Center, with a really dear friend.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Approaching life as an experiment
Yesterday, in the midst of a day of challenges, I read this Pema Chodron quote from "No Time To Lose:"
"My teacher Trungpa Rinpoche encouraged us to lead our lives as an experiment, a suggestion that has been very important to me. When we approach life as an experiment we are willing to approach it this way and that way because, either way, we have nothing to lose.
This immense flexibility is something I learned from watching Trungpa Rinpoche. His enthusiasm enabled him to accomplish an amazing amount in his life. When some things didn't work out, Rinpoche's attitude was 'no big deal.' If it's time for something to flourish, it will; if it's not time, it won't.
The trick is not getting caught in hope and fear. We can put our whole heart into whatever we do; but if we freeze our attitude for or against, we're setting ourselves up for stress. Instead, we could just go forward with curiosity, wondering where this experiment will lead."
We are waiting for results of the biopsy of the mass they found in my mother's stomach. She is also supposed to have surgery tomorrow on her leg. (We've been waiting all week.) She is not in great shape. Yesterday, they put a screen in her inferior vena cava to prevent blood clots to her lungs after the surgery to repair the leg, which we've been waiting for for a week. Normally they would give her blood thinners, but because of the mass in her stomach, which is bleeding, they can't.
It's hard to sit in the hospital room for too many hours, seeing my mother in so much discomfort. A friend of mine called me yesterday morning and said take time every day to do something for yourself, and I have been doing that. Wednesday afternoon I met a friend in the newly restored Washington Square Park (the fountain works again!) and we sat on the grass and ate a falafel. It was a gorgeous spring day and it was wonderful to be there with her.
And then yesterday, I took a long walk in Central Park. I find so much pleasure in nature and living around the block from Fort Greene Park is also a great gift for me and especially for my dogs.
If I just take all of this a day at a time, one moment at a time, I seem to be able to handle it. And to my readers (all two of you) thanks for the words of encouragement and support.
Today I am going to a production meeting for the Midtown International Theater Festival. The dates of my three performances are at the end of July and beginning of August. I'm not sure anyone will be in town, but hopefully someone will be able to attend.
I'm going to drag myself into the shower and try to make the best of this glorious day.
"My teacher Trungpa Rinpoche encouraged us to lead our lives as an experiment, a suggestion that has been very important to me. When we approach life as an experiment we are willing to approach it this way and that way because, either way, we have nothing to lose.
This immense flexibility is something I learned from watching Trungpa Rinpoche. His enthusiasm enabled him to accomplish an amazing amount in his life. When some things didn't work out, Rinpoche's attitude was 'no big deal.' If it's time for something to flourish, it will; if it's not time, it won't.
The trick is not getting caught in hope and fear. We can put our whole heart into whatever we do; but if we freeze our attitude for or against, we're setting ourselves up for stress. Instead, we could just go forward with curiosity, wondering where this experiment will lead."
We are waiting for results of the biopsy of the mass they found in my mother's stomach. She is also supposed to have surgery tomorrow on her leg. (We've been waiting all week.) She is not in great shape. Yesterday, they put a screen in her inferior vena cava to prevent blood clots to her lungs after the surgery to repair the leg, which we've been waiting for for a week. Normally they would give her blood thinners, but because of the mass in her stomach, which is bleeding, they can't.
It's hard to sit in the hospital room for too many hours, seeing my mother in so much discomfort. A friend of mine called me yesterday morning and said take time every day to do something for yourself, and I have been doing that. Wednesday afternoon I met a friend in the newly restored Washington Square Park (the fountain works again!) and we sat on the grass and ate a falafel. It was a gorgeous spring day and it was wonderful to be there with her.
And then yesterday, I took a long walk in Central Park. I find so much pleasure in nature and living around the block from Fort Greene Park is also a great gift for me and especially for my dogs.
If I just take all of this a day at a time, one moment at a time, I seem to be able to handle it. And to my readers (all two of you) thanks for the words of encouragement and support.
Today I am going to a production meeting for the Midtown International Theater Festival. The dates of my three performances are at the end of July and beginning of August. I'm not sure anyone will be in town, but hopefully someone will be able to attend.
I'm going to drag myself into the shower and try to make the best of this glorious day.
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