My ex once actually said those words to me. I'm telling you this not to point the finger or cast blame. I'm just saying, I like fun. I need fun. I crave fun.
And this year, I am going to have it. It's been a long time, since I have felt so in control of my life - and also out of control. I can choose the people I want to spend time with and what I do with some of my time. I can't control much else, but one thing I am going to focus on is bringing joy and fun into my life.
Last night Abigail, my loftmate, and I had a group of women over for dinner and a movie. We bought ourselves a flat screen TV for Christmas (not big) and then a cable guy came and attached a new hi def cable box, but somehow our DVD player was not attached. I spent a good forty-five minutes on the phone with Time Warner, much to the amusement of our guests, but I failed in my mission to figure out what the problem was.
We had a really enjoyable evening anyway, talking and laughing and I am always amazed at how much I love being with people and how isolated my prior life had been.
So this year, I choose fun. I choose spending more time with people I really like and who like me, and are also looking to bring more pleasure and fun into their lives. I have realized lately that I'm not an extrovert or an introvert - I'm a centrovert. I am nourished by being with people and I couldn't possibly exist without time alone. This year I'm on a hunt for a more authentic life. I'm still meditating, imperfectly, but daily.
I need to throw in a plug for gratitude. Last year was difficult, but I wouldn't trade a moment of it. It truly was "a creative and transformative experience." And I guess this year will probably continue to be as well.
"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." Lao-tse