But really so much better. I still have days when my feelings come up and I wonder how long it will go on, but those days are fewer and farther between, as they say. Today I had a Reiki session and the practitioner asked me what was going on in my life (this was at Friends In Deed) and as I told her, I had a good cry and she said, "Wow, that's a lot to handle all at once." And she said some other stuff that I can't remember, but at the time felt good. I don't know why, but I am really happy that I have these feelings of sadness and that I can actually feel alive after so many years of feeling numb and never crying. I used to be amazed when someone said, "Oh, I cried all night." Or "I couldn't stop crying." I just didn't get it. Now I get it. Now I have much more compassion and empathy.
I just got a text message that my daughter, who works at "It's A Grind" in Nob Hill, San Francisco. She invented a vanilla-hazelnut latte and everyone likes it. I'm so proud!