Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Fear

Why is it in the middle of the night that everything always seems worse? Particularly at around 3 a.m. When I wake up at 3 or 4 a.m. and I can't get back to sleep it's because I am running a long list of catastrophes like a loop in my mind:

Poverty...terrorist attacks...Republicans back in the White House... cancer...homeless...lonely...nervous breakdown...no friends... jobless...fat... broke...addicted to something...lost my sense of humor...(I think I already have)...horrible blind dates for the rest of my life...


You get the picture. There's an actual prayer line you can call twenty-four hours a day - it's Silent Unity - and there's always someone on the phone to talk to. You have to listen to a message for about five minutes before you reach someone, but that is good because you generally fall back to sleep while listening. If you talk to the minister in training (that's who is on duty) you tell them what you need help with (I asked for my friend O, my daughter and myself) and for the next thirty days someone out there in Kansas City will be praying for you every day.

A friend of mine told me about this twenty-four hour hotline. If you can't sleep and even if you don't believe in God or any kind of whatever, it's still a good resource, a person to talk to in the middle of the night. Here's the phone number: 800-669-7729.


1 comment:

anniemcq said...

One of the many things I love about you, Robin, is your resourcefulness, your willingness to take risks and reach out. And your sense of humor.

I don't think you'll ever need to worry about losing that.